Thanks for the crappy mood.
Other people are pissing me off because they're either avoiding me or just being emo little fucks. GRRRRRR.
Now that I think about it, I think it's all guys I'm pissed off at/about right now. The ex boyfriend, the friend who over-reacted about me not wanting to date him, the one who didn't call me back, he probably forgot. Also the one that is annoying the shit out of me, the one that said he liked me and valued my friendship, but never spoke to me again, the one I enjoy talking to and who seems decent but I can't talk to right now (not really his fault though, so I guess he's innocent). Most guys in general.
And then there's the one who shot himself two years ago. Great job. Really.
I wish I had gotten to know him better.
And in my mind, I forever dedicate the song "My Immortal" by Evanesence, to Ryan Patrick Clancy. Rest in peace, baby "stallion".
"My Immortal"
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leaveI wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
[Chorus]
