This is how I entertain myself late at night:

Are You a Sex Goddess?
A brilliant bolt of lightning descends! SHAZAAM! The oracle has spoken!
The smoke clears to reveal that inside you is a divine being,
HESTIA, the Goddess of Family and Peace.
She's a deity who embraces all the aspects of womanhood. As a woman in her image, you exude femininity and sensuality.
You view men as the perfect counterpart to your womanly ways. But you probably don't appreciate casual encounters. Rather, you prefer purity and tradition. Because of these predilections, you tend to attract men who understand your nature and possess maturity and seriousness beyond their years. When you finally arrive at the bedroom and your divine qualities are released, you reveal such sensuality that the experience is unforgettable. In other words, with the right guy, you really know how to get wild in the sack. In fact, when the mood strikes, you can easily drive your man crazy. But out of respect for your inner nature, you require love and devotion from your partners. You are an attentive and giving lover who knows how to make your man feel sexy, appreciated, and fulfilled. When you show your stuff, it's like a light shines down from the heavens. Behold, the skies proclaim, here lies a goddess!
http://web.tickle.com/tests/standard/goddess_result.jsp

Hmm seems about right... with a few exceptions.

This one was taken a couple years ago:

your subconscious mind is driven most by Peace

You have a deeply-rooted desire to make peace in the world. Whether through subtle interactions with loved ones, or through getting involved in social causes, it is important to you to be able to influence the world in a positive way.You have a deep respect for humankind. You care about the future of the world, even beyond your own involvement in it, and you inspire others to feel the same way. Your innate drive toward peace guides you in daily life towards decisions that are respectful toward yourself and others. Your psyche is very rich; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.

Painted Dancers...

A poem I wrote a year or so ago...one of the few I still like...

Painted dancers

masquerading through time

Singing to the moon and the stars

They travel to the sun

dancing through the sky

Not knowing where their destiny leads

lost in the subconscious of time

The painted dancers

beckon me, to follow them

Light on our feet, we go

Sailing through the clouds

high as angels

with wings of demon-fire

Tonight I want to hide my feelings too....

I am most definitely a pessimist.
Everything seems so bleak right now; I'm not going anywhere in life, and happiness was not destined for me. Why'd I have to be such a fuck up? Really?